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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Can I scream?

It isn't even 9 am and this is my second entry. I woke up happy, but things have steadily gone downhill. :( Yesterday was Mindi's day to be irritated, today must be mine. I am so hot for some reason, soooooo hot. It isn't that warm outside, but I am sweating buckets. I hate being sweaty. I almost can't tolerate it. I don't know what is going on. UGH!!

My two are fighting like mad today. About everything. The baby is so whiny too. I swear if anyone looks at her funny, she is crying. This kid is so high maintenance. I have said to my husband several times, that if she were mine--she would also be my last. I have never met a child as moody and as needy as she is. She is here so often that she calls C.K. and I mommy and daddy. Ay yi yi. I am not looking forward to her behavior when I am toting a newborn around. It will be a huge adjustment for her and Kenna as well, I am sure. And, as usual, the four year old is conked out in the recliner. He is the only one behaving at the moment. LOL

One more (6 year old) to arrive any minute. I just hope she is in a decent mood. She is not a morning person at all.

CALGON--TAKE ME AWAY!!!
I think I have hit the "uncool" stage.
How and when did that happen? I have always been in denial that one day my kids would think I was lame and not want to be seen with me, although I know it happens to everyone eventually. However, this morning I was flipping through the channels and stopped briefly on MTV. I realized that Kanye West gives me a headache and I just find the Black Eyed Peas completely weird and irritating. LOL The downward spiral into old age has begun. ;)

Mindi, is this font better? It looks so big for me. But, the other wasn't small for me either. Let me know. You fine people shouldn't be missing out on my totally intriguing thoughts. LOL
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
I wonder..
I wonder if we are feeling the wrath of Katrina here way up north. It has been raining steadily all night with no end in sight for a couple of days says our trusty weatherman.

I wonder why my kids always sleep in when I have to get up early. Funny how on my days off they are raring to go by 7:00.

I wonder when this baby will make her entrance. Jaycie's first day of school is the 6th and I will be so sad if I cannot be here to get her ready and take her that day.

I wonder if I am the only parent who refuses to let her children watch the "Fairly Oddparents." I used to not let them watch Spongebob either, but have relented. He is everywhere.

I wonder where my dear friend Nan has disappeared to. I miss her lately. I hope she lurks a bit here and there.

I wonder if Mackenna will always be as sweet as she is now. It wouldn't be a normal day without a gazillion kisses, hugs, and "I love yous" from her.

I wonder if Jaycie will always be as stubborn and independent. I hope so even though it tests me so much now. ;) She is such a mini- me.
Sunday, August 28, 2005
When has two weeks ever felt this long?
I am so anxious to have this baby. I am beyond ready. Bags are packed, everything here is ready for her to come home. Kids are pestering me every day asking when.

Friday afternoon I started getting pretty crampy. No biggie. That is to be expected this late in the game. But, by yesterday afternoon they were getting worse and my back was starting to ache. So, I was thinking just maybe something may be going on. I cleaned the whole house, and kept busy thinking that I would help it along. I took the girls swimming last evening and as I was sitting there watching them in the pool, everything just stopped. NOTHING. Ugh, can you believe that? Here I was all excited. I am coming up on 38 weeks tomorrow and I have never gone past that point. But, I think this little stinker is going to wait until the last possible minute to come. I even walked around Walmart and the mall today thinking it may start again. LOL No such luck. Two weeks is nothing, but is feeling like an eternity for me right now.
Friday, August 26, 2005
Today's events.
My good friend just took my kids swimming for a bit, so I am all alone with my thoughts.

My husband's boss has a daughter who is 43. She is an alcoholic and also has some kind of eating disorder. She was found on the floor of a hotel room yesterday morning in severe withdrawal and is now in the hospital. This has happened several times since we have lived here (2 years). I am certain someone will find her dead one of these times. It really makes me so sad because she is a beautiful, sweet lady who has had a rough time of it. I really wish she could get her life straightened out.

Had my 37.5 week appt. today. Nothing new to report other than I haven't gained any more weight and I have an ear infection. C.K. left for Lancaster this afternoon and won't be home until the wee hours of the morning. Wouldn't you know shortly after he left, I started feeling super crampy. LOL Funny because we joked that him leaving may make me progress. ;)

My brother called this morning. He just wanted to be the first to tell me that he and my parents are on the outs. Like I really need to be involved. He is a typical 21 year old college guy who is self-centered, immature, and a huge slob. He was home for the summer, so I knew it wouldn't take long for him to wear out his welcome. LOL I just keep hoping he will grow up someday. I think it becomes clearer all the time that I will forever be the responsible one of the three kids. I just know that when my parents get old, I will be in charge of all the important stuff. Lucky me. Marz, is that what your birth order book predicts of the eldest child? I think I need to get that book.

Mindi, is the font better? I think I changed it a bit.

Ok, miss my kids already. I think I will go get them. ;)
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Early in the day thoughts.
1. If I get any bigger, I will need help getting dressed.

2. Just because you shower and shave does not make me automatically want to have sex with you.

3. Why does the neighbors dog always have to get loose ONLY on the night before garbage day and string trash all over the yard?

4. Why am I the only one in my household that can take the trash bag outside, empty the dishwasher, or unload the dryer?

5. It wouldn't be a normal day without someone spilling a whole cup full of milk or juice all over the floor.

6. I honestly cannot live a day without diet coke.

7. Is it naptime yet?
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Today's ramblings...
I took the girls to the dentist today. Jaycie needed a cleaning and a check up. Kenna needed two fillings. I have had such anxiety about that all week. Wouldn't you know that the child never made a peep? They didn't even numb her and she was an absolute angel. I am so proud of her. I took them both out for ice cream afterwards for being such good patients. LOL Now, really....how ass backwards is that? ;) Unfortunately, Jaycie has three new cavities. ARG. I have just come to the conclusion that they have soft teeth and all I can do about it is make sure they see the dentist every six months to keep it all under control.

I am on the lookout for a new aussie pup. C.K. would love to have a female to breed our male to. So, for either our anniversary in October or for Christmas , I would like to surprise him. Just depends on when and where I can find one. Not sure if I am ready for another puppy, especially an aussie. Our boy was unusually hyper for the first year of his life. I only found out afterwards that that is normal for australian shepherds. Thankfully he is over that now and is just the love of C.K.'s and Jaycie's lives. I think they like that dog more than they like me. LOL

I finally changed my template. Not sure I like this one that much, but the blue was getting old for me. I wish I was html literate, but I am not at all. So, this will have to do for now. :)
Saturday, August 20, 2005
For Dana.
Nothing too exciting to report. The doctor didn't even check me because it was the fill in doc and the office was super busy. He just said if I go now they won't try to stop labor, so it doesn't really matter if I am progressing any more. I was kind of bummed, but what can you do? Oh and one of my several tests for Beta Strep came back positive. EWW. I feel so scurfy about that. LOL But, that just means that instead of laboring as much as possible at home like I wanted to, I just have to high tail it to the hospital in order to get antibiotics in plenty of time. I am beginning to think that this may be my first full term baby. I think she is cozy in there. :)
Tied up some loose ends today.
Went to the mall and Walmart today. I really miss the days when I wasn't working and could shop during the middle of the week and avoid crowds. It took us forever to get finished today. So many people were out and about. I had to get groceries, some last minute things for the baby and for the hospital stay. I also finished up Jaycie's school shopping. Her teacher sent out a letter with a gazillion things we needed to send with her on the first day. Now, it didn't amount to that much money, and of course I don't mind....BUT, I really think something is majorly screwed up when our school system cannot supply simple items such as pencils and crayons. Come on! Where are the priorities, you know? It is so sad to me that money is squandered in this country the way it is and our kids' education isn't taken care of the way it should be. :(

I bought some storage stuff and lots of hangers today as well. I have already started getting closets organized (again) and getting some of Jaycie's old clothes out for Kenna for fall/winter. I finished Jaycie's closet and hung up all of the baby clothes so far. I guess some might call that "nesting" if you believe in that stuff. LOL Who knows. I am just tired of clutter and things being in disarray.

Did you ever notice how sizes vary? From brand to brand? I can't believe my life is so boring that I am actually blogging about this, but... I bought a pack of new underoos (as Kenna calls them LOL) and the package *says* they are my size. However, I realized when I opened them that I could fit a small village inside of one pair. WHOA! They are huge. And, of course I opened them, so I can't return them. I guess I just need to really keep my fingers crossed that I can shrink the heck out of them. I somehow doubt that will happen. And, if not I can always use them for some pretty valances. ;)
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Well...
Total damage was $333.98. WHEW! Could have been much worse, I guess. Paychecks are easy come, easy go. Story of my life. ;)

Oh, and spammers--no need to respond. ;)
I need to keep up with this better.
I don't like going days without an entry, but I haven't had anything to blog about really. I have been too grumpy I think. LOL

I am so glad the show stuff is done with for the week, I think we are all still catching up on sleep here. I don't know if I will ever get there. *yawn* And, I was sunburnt to a crisp on Monday. Pretty sad when you actually use sunblock and you still get burned. My ears (had my hair up), my neck, chest, face, and shoulders are all RED. I am such an albino, I swear.

I have a doctor appointment tomorrow and I am keeping my fingers crossed that things are progressing a bit. I am beginning to feel like this will be the neverending pregnancy. Yes, I know I am only 36.5 weeks along, but I am so uncomfortable and I just keep thinking how we had Kenna by now. LOL I am axious to meet my little one and tired of her being comfy in there. ;)

My car had to go in the shop and I am so nervous about the phone call I should get this morning telling me the bottom line. :hide The computer stuff in the dash is screwed up somehow. All the warning lights and such come on and off and the mileage won't stay lit up. I can't get it inspected like that, so I am hoping it is just a short somewhere and not anything too involved.

Did I just win the award for the most boring blog entry of the week or what? ;)
Sunday, August 14, 2005
My little cowgirl.

Jaycie showed her calf tonight and was so proud of herself (as are her parents). She did so well and I can't believe how big she is getting. Doesn't she look cute?
Saturday, August 13, 2005
What a day!
Good grief. I am such a moron.

We moved ten cows into the fairgrounds this morning. Then, I made a dozen trips back and forth to get things that C.K. had forgotten. I noticed a ton of wasps flying around our tent. That is not good at all because the last two times C.K. has been stung, he has been rushed to the hospital while his throat was swelling shut. So, in one of my dozen trips I made sure to grab an Epi-Pen for him just in case. Well, sure enough later on he got stung on his arm. So, I start panicking and jump up to get the epinephrine out of the cooler. In all the fuss, I somehow managed (don't ask me how) to inject myself in the thumb instead of him in the thigh. Of all the stupid things to do. Not only did I stick myself with it, but I also bent the needle and the stupid thing was stuck in my thumb. Blood was dripping everywhere and all the while his arm was swelling like crazy. So, off to the hospital we both go. I am sure someday we will laugh about it, but for now, my thumb is throbbing and the rest of my hand loses feeling off and on and his arm is pretty sore as well. Couple of gems we are.
Thursday, August 11, 2005
If I had a nickel...
for every one of the following things I say (to my own children) a gazillion times a day, I would not have to work.

1. Please do not raise your voice, remember indoor vs. outdoor voices.
2. Jaycie, do not pick up Kenna or any other little one. You will hurt yourself, them, or both.
3. Do not tease your sister.
4. Get your finger out of your nose.
5. Please move back, you are too close to the tv.
6. You need to clean up the mess you have out before you make another one.
7. In or out, and please close the door instead of letting all the cool air outside.
8. You do not need to have the last word, it is not necessary to argue.

I am sure there are more. Those are the ones I have said most today. GRRR. And, as I am typing this, Jaycie is giggling and Mackenna is screaming because she is being teased. Where is the Calgon when you need it?

I am so mad at myself. I drove the half hour to Walmart this afternoon and forgot to pick up my contacts while I was there. ARG. Now, I will either have to make a special trip or wait over a week to get them. I also went against my better judgement and bought sweet corn at Walmart instead of driving an extra 5 minutes and buying it at the farmers stand. While I was husking it, it became evident that 3 of the 8 ears were half rotten. They were moldy inside. Not pleased with Walmart today at all. Oh, and can I ever go there without spending at least $100? Wait, I did. I only spent $99.02. (rolling eyes) I swear, I only got what was on the list too. I don't think it is possible for me to go in there and come out with any money left. LOL
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Thoughts of the day.
Misti, you inspired me. :)

1. Little girls should not wear shorts that leave little to the imagination when they bend over, nor do *I* think it is appropriate for little girls (or young women for that matter) to wear words such as "cutie," or "hottie" across their ass.

2. You should really knock before coming into my home, this is not a public building. Just because your child is here every day does not make it your home either. Oh, and while you are at it, do you mind not wearing your dirty shoes across my carpet?

3. Either you are happy with your marriage/life/career or you are not. It is that simple. If you are not, do what is necessary to change whatever needs to be changed. Stop going back and forth on the issue, it really is a simple matter. I told one of my friends recently to "Shit or get off the pot." Crude, crass? Maybe, but I think she got the point. ;)

4. I really think that Allison Krauss has the about the closest voice to that of an angel one can get. I never get tired of listening to her sing.

5. When I have to drive a half an hour to buy contacts and the vision center is out of stock, the least they can do is send them to my home when they come in so that I don't have to drive that half an hour again.

6. It strikes me funny that people call me to see how dilated I am because they know I had a ob appt. yesterday. LOL Does that classify as a "personal" question? I mean, I don't go around asking non pregnant women how their uterus/cervix is doing. ;)

7. The playgirl guys "performed"(I guess that is what you would call it) at a local bar over the weekend. Apparently, the place was packed. Am I the only woman who thinks penises are the ugliest things ever? Seriously, who pays to look at those things?

On a lighter note....

Jaycie began practicing with her calf last night. She is breaking it to lead. I just love watching her and C.K. doing this stuff together. I know it is something special that she will always remember when she thinks of her dad many years down the road. So sweet.
Monday, August 08, 2005
Is it Monday already?














My weekends really fly by. Don't you ever wish the work week was two days and the weekend was five? Now, really..how perfect would that be? ;) C.K. is working most of his days off lately because he wants to be sure to have the time when the baby decides to come. And, next week is fair week which means the beginning of show season. Things are going to become crazy busy here very soon. I really love show season though. Jaycie will be showing a calf on Sunday evening and is so excited. She is following right in Daddy's footsteps, that one.

We took the girls to the dam swimming yesterday and they just had a ball. It was a spectacular day, weather-wise and the beach wasn't very crowded at all which was nice. Of course I took a few dozen pictures. ;)
Saturday, August 06, 2005
"That is a really big shake for such a little girl!"

A lady said this to Mackenna while we were leaving the ice cream place a bit ago. And, yeah maybe it was big, but it was a "guilt shake" and they are meant to be big. :)

My poor little girl always seems to get left out. Jaycie is a little socialite and is constantly going somewhere. She gets invited everywhere and today she was invited to a friend's house for the afternoon. Well, Kenna cried and cried because she wanted to go to. The "guilt shake" was my solution. My heart just breaks to see her so upset. She wants so badly to be included. I know her time will come, but until then mommy will just make her feel better with ice cream and such. And, it isn't that bad because I get one too.
Friday, August 05, 2005
TGIF again!
Today has been a smooth sailing kind of day. It is cooler, the kids have all been great, and all is well. :) Be that as it may, I am still ready for the weekend. I hope you all have a great one!
Thursday, August 04, 2005
She listened!
Well, it is POURING right now and is much cooler. I should have cursed out Mother Nature weeks ago, I guess. ;)
No, I am not made of sugar...
But I swear I am melting. OMGosh, it is so muggy and hot. 94 degrees on my deck. I don't like to curse, but this is my blog, right? Like a diary, my own personal thoughts? It's ok here, right? Well here goes.. Fuck Mother Nature. I hate her. I have had it. Enough is enough already.

I visited with my friend today. I swear she has lost 30 pounds in the last 3 months at least. She is so tiny. I think I have gained everything she lost. LOL It is so nice to call or stop by her house and have her answer the phone or door. Gosh, I have missed her so very much. And, I am so sad that she is leaving in two days for who knows how long. I honestly don't think she will ever come back for good. She says she feels "suffocated" in this town. I am not sure I understand that, but I wish I could make it better for her. And, I feel torn because we are friends with her husband too and I really sympathize with him. The poor guy can' t seem to win for losing. What a screwed up situation.

My kids are picking at each other like mad today. I am about to pull my hair out. I think the heat is getting to them as well. I find myself wondering if they will ever get along or like each other. LOL How long do I need to wait for that to happen? Any ideas?

A lady called me today inquiring about daycare. She is due in two weeks. So, if I take her baby on, come November I will have a two year old, a three year old, my newborn, and this baby. Then, after school will be three six year olds and an eight year old added to the mix. Oh, I don't know if I will be up for that. I guess it doesn't hurt to interview with her, but I am doubting that I will do it. I would really love just to do an after school program. That way, I would still have my days free. Something to think about, anyway.

Well, this was surely an upbeat blog entry, huh? Will anyone read after today?

Later! :)
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
My friend is home!
My best friend who left her husband (just for a "breather") over two months ago is back from Florida. Their son has been here for three weeks visiting his dad. She flew up yesterday and is staying until Saturday when she will take their son back to Florida. I guess that is the plan for now. I wish she would just come home for good. I can't wait to see her. Though, it will be bittersweet for me because I know she is leaving again. For me, there was no better time for her to come back. Crazy as this may sound, I NEED her here. I am so darn miserable--hormonal, sore, uncomfortable, impatient, feeling like a terrible mom right now, etc. I need my friend here to whine and vent to. The husband just isn't cutting it right now. LOL I took tomorrow off so we can spend some time together with our kids. Maybe I can abduct her somehow so she won't be able to leave again. ;)
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
One of those sit in the middle of the floor and cry kind of days...
That was me ten minutes ago. Mackenna just hacked off a chunk of her hair. :( Her beautiful, long, curly hair. Jaycie did the same thing when she was her age. Why do they think this is a good idea? Honestly, it could have been worse. I can blend it in so it isn't that noticeable. And, that portion is still long enough to go into a ponytail with the rest. *SIGH* I guess it was inevitable.

Off to swim lessons to pretend I am the happy-go-lucky, nurturing, patient parent that I am anything but today.......
Something to think about.
At what age do you think modesty is learned? I have noticed that my children will dress and undress anywhere in front of anyone. It doesn't surprise me that my three year old is not bothered by this, but I would think that my 6 year old would start to be just a bit shy at some point and stop trying to change her clothes in the living room. I don't see it happening. : \ I do not know at what age I became modest, but can't even stand to see myself naked, let alone anyone else! Is there still time, or am I really in for some wild and stressful teenage years with my daughters? Any thoughts?